By: Aliaa Fathy
There’s no doubt that waiting is a silent killer.
The most difficult moments are those of waiting, harsh, painful, and difficult.
Waiting truly is—as they say—a reality wearing a broken watch.
They say that the onset of calamity is easier than waiting for it, and perhaps this is true.
How difficult are the moments that pass us by, like years of waiting.
Like a student who has taken a difficult exam, awaiting the results with fear and dread!
How harsh are the hours of the night, when your mind groans from overthinking!
It’s hard to wait for something that will change your life.
It’s like your mind turns into a clock, counting the seconds and minutes around you.
The feeling of waiting is deadly.
Everything you eagerly anticipate is slowly killing you.
You wish you could know what the future holds, so you don’t wait for something that may never come.
Waiting is a deadly pause in time.
You find yourself unable to think about anything else, unable to concentrate, and unable to sleep well.
You may even wish your mind would stop thinking altogether.
You wish you could speed up time, turn back the clock, or close your eyes, then wake up to find yourself in another time and another place.
To find yourself having overcome every moment, hour, day, and night of waiting.
To overcome every hardship you’ve experienced, every sleepless feeling, every tear you’ve shed, and every pain you’ve experienced.
And the hardest part is to live all these moments alone.
Hiding your feelings, pain, and suffering from everyone.
No one knows anything about any internal struggles you’re experiencing.
You spend the moments of fear, anxiety, and waiting alone.
No one shares your concerns, just you, your heart, your tears, and your thoughts.
You suffer alone with your worries, your pain, and the ache that weighs down your heart.
Time is like an executioner for you.
It’s as if time has stopped, as if each moment drags on for an eternity.
It’s as if your heartbeats are racing, tension is overwhelming you, and your spirit is withdrawing from you.
You count the seconds, as if you’ve been waiting a long time.
Wishes are beautiful, but their waiting is deadly.
