By: Aliaa Fathy
Sometimes, I’m afraid of fate,
afraid of the future, afraid of the unknown.
Perhaps I fear more for the people closest to me.
I’m afraid something will happen to me. Who will support them?
My burden is heavy. Who will carry it after me?
I’m very afraid that my health will deteriorate and get worse, that I will lie down and not be able to get up.
All I truly wish for is to remain this way, not needing anyone.
I proceed with God’s help alone, never resorting to anyone.
I remain the support and wall for all my loved ones, their pillar and backbone.
I fulfill my responsibilities as I always do, to the fullest.
I strive and work hard and achieve all that I desire.
I keep running and running from here to there, no matter how tired I get.
I know full well that the future is in God’s hands and that everything is predestined for us.
I am always content with God’s blessings, but I can’t deny that I feel some anxiety and fear, especially when I’m tired.
Not for myself, but for those around me, for those who lean on me and depend on me.
I always feel a great sense of responsibility, always trying not to fall short in anything.
I do everything I can, perhaps even beyond my capacity, to please and make everyone happy, no matter how tired I am.
All I hope for is to always keep giving.
I pray to God to help me and strengthen me in everything,
to grant me the strength to continue.
This is what truly makes me happy and fulfilled. This is what makes me forget the fatigue… when I see the satisfying results.
This is what gives me happiness that I truly hope will last.
O God, grant us light days, not heavy ones.
O God, let us pass through them without suffering any harm.
O God, grant us safety and protection, health, and well-being.
O God, grant us the energy to live, endure, and persevere.
O God, grant us constant light along the way.
O God, keep us in Your care and protection always.
