By: Aliaa Fathy
How difficult it is to wait!
And how difficult it is to have hope!
It’s the feeling I fear most in the world.
I had forgotten it, and I don’t want to relive it.
I don’t want to hope and dream, only to be surprised by the painful reality and harsh circumstances. It’s difficult to become attached to someone, to need him, and to wait for him.
It’s hard to sit alone, searching for him in the faces of others. It’s hard to imagine him, as if your imagination soars to the highest heavens, only to find him gone, then plummet to the lowest depths. It’s hard to imagine yourself embracing him, weeping in his arms, feeling his pat on the shoulder. You imagine feelings with him that you’ve never experienced with anyone before. A pain in itself… and what pain?! The greatest pain.
How we wrong ourselves when we attach ourselves to another person… not out of distrust in them, but out of distrust in circumstances like someone addicted to something and unable to recover. Therefore, we must strive for recovery within ourselves only.
